As most of you probably know, I have an illness called Anorexia Nervosa. These four photos are of me (excuse the poor quality), but just over three months apart. In late August this year, my health plummeted dramatically and I was the most unwell that I’d been since being hospitalized. I am not going to post a photo of what I looked like in late August, because it is far too upsetting and distressing to even look at photographs of myself then. So just imagine the left photos minus 12kg or so. The photos on the left were a few months before my weight loss. After being told that I was going to die and that I was on my deathbed yet again, I did not die. On the 4th of September 2013 I made the choice to begin training with a personal trainer, and it has been an absolute struggle physically and mostly mentally, but it’s been the best decision that I’ve ever made. I’ve been building muscle and training as hard as I possibly can and it is so rewarding finding myself getting physically stronger each and every day. Every meal time I still struggle, every single day my mind is plagued with dark thoughts. I still have Anorexia but one thing is for sure, I’ve chosen to fight like hell because I do not want to be dead anymore. I want my life back. Training makes me feel alive and I have finally realized that having Anorexia is not being alive, it is not living at all. I am no where near where I want to be, but I am a work in progress. This is a battle that I am going to be fighting for my entire life, but I finally want to fight. I cannot thank my beautiful family and amazing trainer enough, if it wasn’t for them I would not be alive to type this.
Note - since the last photographs were taken, I have progressed much further in regards to my muscle development, but have not taken photos as of yet. I will make another progress photo post a little later down the track.
Amy. X
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